Today, my boss was fired.
This event results in the following new acts for today:
1) I survived a bad boss, rather than them outlasting me. I’ve never been fired but I’ve left a job because of poor management. I stayed in this job because it is the industry in which I want to work, I love the team of people with whom I work, and it is a shitty economy and full time jobs are not easy to come by. My surviving him is an act of victory.
2) I stood up to work practices that I found unethical and unprofessional and was not fired. I didn’t know that this would be the result at the time and I was terrified. I didn’t know I had that in me.
3) I started to learn how to manage a team of people because he was not willing to do so. I didn’t know I could do that. I learned exactly how frustrated I can be and how I react to extreme stress. I also learned that I genuinely care about how happy and well-treated other people are in their workplace.
4) Learned more about Excel.
5) I learned how amazing, self-sacrificing, and hard-working my co-workers are. The past 12 months have been a lot of work and little reward and they have humbled and inspired me with their compassion and resilience.
6) I got a wish a today that I never, ever thought would come true. Yesterday, someone at work was credited and awarded for work that was a collaboration between my team and several other departments. The nomination was a parting gift of my ex-boss and left me so enraged that after work I beat a chair to piece with a baseball bat in the alley (hi neighbors!). I was heartbroken for my team and I kept thinking, “The only way this could possibly be healed is for someone to acknowledge the wrong, apologize, and recognize the year of work they put in.” I never thought that would happen.
Today one of upper administrators came down to our staff meeting, acknowledged the wrong, apologized, and recognized all the work they had put in. I am so deeply grateful, it was like they poured sunshine into a dark room we were all living in.
7) This morning, after my terrible day and night, I suddenly felt calm and at peace, like nothing could touch me. I’ve never felt like that after difficult time–numb maybe, or resigned. But not like that. I feel like going through all of this helped me learn how to be happy despite everything; a combination of concentrating on what resources I do have, detaching myself from negative people and just knowing that I will get through the day.
For that knowledge, Ex-Boss, I am grateful.